Fairy Godmother Makeover

I need one of these - a fairy godmother.  I want her to wave her magic wand and I'll be skinny again, with great skin and pretty hair. A closet full of clothes from The Buckle would be nice too! She'll just give me a slimming pill and poof! 20 pounds gone!  Oh, well, since it's magic, might as well go for 30 pounds gone!

On Friday, I am getting my hair cut and colored.  I've decided to try dark.  I'm not sure how it is going to look with my skin tone - might look like death warmed over - but I won't know until I try.  I know blond makes me look washed out.  My normal brown is blah boring.  I'm going dark! What the heck, it's only hair.

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Most Important Men's Vitamin

What is THE most important vitamin for a man to take if he was only going to take one?  I have been looking for a men's vitamin that includes everything a man needs but not being male, I don't know what that is and my husband doesn't really care all that much.  I have been telling him for the last few years that he has to start taking Lycopene for his prostate but he has no clue what Lycopene is (he probably doesn't know what a prostate is either).  I set his vitamins out for him and he's good for the first day or two of taking them and then he stops.  Maybe if they tasted fruity and were chewable like the kids' vitamins, he'd remember to take them. 

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Web Directories

I just googled web directories and my URL for this blog and it came back as being in a directory for parenting/mothers. I don't remember doing that.   Does google index things that way on their own? 

Maybe I did do it and don't remember.  That wouldn't surprise me at all.  My memory is pretty much mush anymore.

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Celebrity Weight Gain & Loss

Everybody makes a big deal about celebrity weight gain, like they're not human like the rest of us.  Of course, the rest of us don't have access to personal trainers on a daily basis and fancy diets and their choice of diet pills so they do have some advantages to the weight issue.  Of course, the average person's weight gain isn't splashed across the magazines for the world to see (can you imagine how horrid that would be?) so maybe it's not all that great.

Marie Osmond and Valerie Bertinelli did a great job with losing weight.  They look a lot better than I do and they're years older!

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9 Pounds Back On! Ugh!

I've gained back nine of the 18 pounds I lost.  I told my husband this morning and he said, "That's ok, there's just more of you to love."  He's just kissing up because I've been really angry with him the last few weeks so he's trying to score points. 

My thyroid isn't managed.  This silly little organ just wreaks havoc on my body!  My husband suggested I go back to managing my thyroid myself, which was when I lost all that weight to begin with.  I can. I just prefer to be able to have my new doctor's input and approval for it because he's trying and he's not close-minded. I just don't think he's THAT open-minded about my getting my medication from Thailand as opposed to him.

I know my weight problem is my thyroid and stress and if I get my thyroid managed, it'll go away.  That doesn't stop me from browsing the aisles for the best weight loss supplement. I can't stand being this big! It's so frustrating.

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Old & Acne? Seriously!?!?

I just turned 39.  I would've thought by now that acne was behind me!  I was browsing the supermarket aisles this morning looking for a blackhead removal product but didn't find anything that I believed might work.  So now I am going to search online at bestacnetreatment.net and see what I can come up with.

I have two spots that I am about ready to gouge out of my skin. Seriously! I've tried scrubs, pads, masks, and washes. I'm about at the end of my rope.  If I have to get old, wrinkly, saggy, and ornery from hormone upheaval, at least let me live without the acne!

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Order the baby gift baskets for a new mom at 40!

I have to tell this story here because my older sister reads this blog and this will freak her out.

This past Saturday, I turned 39 years old.  It wasn't a birthday I looked forward to because it is only one away from 40 (and boy do I dread 40).  While out to dinner with the husband and our four kids on Saturday, my kids asked me in the middle of dinner if we'd have another baby because they want a baby sibling. 

*sputter*  Huh?

OK, you tell your aunt that she's going to need another baby shower for us, get the baby gift baskets ordered, and see what happens.  You will hear your aunt either yell, or hit the floor, from another state!

Just kidding (about what I told the kids, not about my sister's reaction were it to happen, lol). 

No babies.  That is what I told the kids.  No babies.  I told the kids that we are too old to start over again.  Between our four and my husband's two kids, isn't six enough?  Geesh!  I mean, I know we give our kids awesome chromosomes and everything but come on, give mom a break here!

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Clumsy Teenager

This afternoon, my 13-year-old will meet her physical therapist for her ankle.  She has been so accident prone the last few years.  Must have something to do with the growth spurts or something.  I know I'm totally graceful so she didn't get her clumsiness from me.  Ha ha. 

She's sprained her wrist.  She's tore ligaments in her finger.  She's bruised her eyeball twice (to the extent the eye specialist told us at the time if she did it again, it could cause blind but we got through it without anymore mishaps so eye sight intact!).  Now it's her ankle.  Two of the injuries came from playing basketball and two of them came from messing around outside.  I can't even remember where the scar below her eyebrow came from. 

I wonder if all teenagers are clumsy.

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Bickering Girls!!

It's been one of those frustrating afternoons with the kids.  The trip to the pediatrician for my daughter's sprained ankle resulted in a referral for physical therapy.  Not a huge surprise and that wasn't the problem.

The problem came when I took four kids into Wal-Mart with me.  My three girls bickered, bickered, bickered.  No bickering from my son (of course).  Not what I wanted to deal with when my allergies have been bad since I woke up (Claritin isn't working).  Why can't females get together without bickering? 

The highlight of my afternoon:  My 11-year-old son wanted to spend some of his birthday money while my teenage daughter needed a bra so he walked through the lingerie aisles with us with his eyes covered.  His five-year-old sister steered him through aisles every color and size bra until we were done.  He gets that embarrassed.

I ended up so frustrated with my girls that I didn't finish shopping.  I wanted to look around at baby gifts but decided to come home and look at personalized baby gifts online instead for a better selection of gift ideas without bickering kids.  The kids are all outside playing and I get some peace and quiet to finish shopping for baby stuff.  Between the bickering and my allergies, I could not get out of that store fast enough.  It will be a long time before I shop with all the girls at the same time again.

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How to feel respect when all you think is STUPID

This Friday is the big day.  The day hubby is going to go 30+ hours without sleep so he can see his daughter in another state play for about ten minutes in her marching band, driving nine hours - on no sleep - driving home really late at night - on no sleep.  I'm thinking he'll get home around 4 a.m. or so.  Yeah, that's real smart.

Dad didn't even go to our teenager's marching band performance a week ago and he lives here because of his sleep/work schedule.  If our daughter realizes dad is going to watch her sister in another state but didn't adjust his sleep schedule by only two hours to see her performance, she's going to be hurt.  A little emotional blackmail from an almost 18 year old girl works on dad apparently and that whole sleep/work thing doesn't matter any longer.  If he kills himself, or somebody else on the road, in the process, then what the heck are his six kids going to do?


My husband told me yesterday that I am even turning away from him in my sleep.  What does that tell you about my anger level about this trip when my subconscious doesn't want anything to do with him either?  This trip is an accident waiting to happen, a financial strain not only for the money needed for the trip but he's losing overtime he's supposed to work (on top of the money he just spent on my birthday which I told him NOT to and he didn't listen - hoping to butter me up a bit?), and it is giving into a "child's" blackmail. 

Mommy Dearest (the ex) should be so proud of herself. She's trained her daughter well.

Then my husband asked me yesterday if I think my weight gain is stress related.  Gee, ya think I'm feeling stress right now?  It's definitely stress and it is definitely thyroid.  A lot of the stress is from his actions, or lack thereof.

I can't respect his choice here.  Not only is it stupid and dangerous, he went against everything we agreed upon before I would agree to marry him - that we would discuss decisions that affect our family together when it concerned his kids and his ex.  If somebody else was running the show, I wanted no part in it and I made that very clear before I accepted his marriage proposal.  Apparently, his daughter runs things now.  He certainly didn't talk to me about this before he made his decision.  He knows how I feel about it.  I hope he can live with the consequences because he's shredding my respect and trust.  If he gets himself hurt or killed, our four young kids are going to be devastated.  I can't speak for his two older kids because they don't give him the time of day ever - can't even be bothered to send him a text on Father's Day, or call, or visit.  I'm not even sure why the emotional blackmail to get dad to this thing on Friday.  The ex did say she'd save a seat.  Isn't that sweet of her?

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Ups & Downs of Marriage

There are ups and down in every marriage.  For the last couple of weeks, we've been on a huge downer.  There has been a lot of tension lately over his decision to drive nine hours next weekend to watch his almost 18-year-old daughter play about ten minutes of marching band material (the same daughter who doesn't give him the time of day at any time and purposely over schedules for anything she can so she doesn't have to visit her dad to make her momma happy, even ignoring him on Father's Day without even a phone call or text).  He'll spend gas money and his expenses for this trip when our kids need winter coats and jeans for school.

He said his daughter doesn't want to be a part of our family.  So why the trip when it is going to strain us financially? 

He told his daughter he had to work that weekend but she won't forgive him if he doesn't go so the emotional blackmail wins out over our own agreement between man/wife to discuss anything that affects our family, like this does before making decisions.  Even after telling him we couldn't meet our bills this month if he went, he's still going. 

He missed our own daughter's marching band performance last week because of his work schedule and that was in the same darn town as us and yet he's going to refuse needed and rare overtime and drive nine hours for a ten minute performance. 

To say I am upset is putting it mildly.  There's a very angry part of me that wants to tell him to go and not come back.  The fact that he doesn't talk to his daughter when she blows him off, blows her siblings off, really bothers me and this emotional manipulation on her part just heaped on resentment towards hubby for allowing it.  She is old enough to know better and as her father, he has a responsibility to be dad and talk to her about her hurtful behavior.

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Dreaded Birthday Tomorrow

Tomorrow I will be 39 years old.  One year away from 40, which I dread SO MUCH.  I am really hating this birthday.  I didn't want gifts or anything but as usual, the husband said too bad and took the kids shopping this morning for me.  I know they bought me a digital camera.  If I had the receipt, I could even tell which digital camera he bought me from what the barcode scanner scanned onto the receipt. As it is, he didn't give me the receipt like he usually does. Kind of a "no peeking" thing I guess.

Of course, when he goes to work tonight, I could easily find my present downstairs.  I could be sneaky that way.  However, I won't.  I don't think. 

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Chapter 7 Bankruptcy

Did you know that when you file for chapter 7 bankruptcy, you have to list all your assets' worth down to your furniture, clothing, etc.?  We met with an attorney yesterday to discuss the possibility of filing and he said we don't need to list each individual lamp but group it as a whole (living room furniture, bedroom, etc.).  Good thing they don't want to know specifically about our lighting, eh? One living room lamp, one bedroom lamp in this bedroom, one bedroom lamp in this bedroom, a ceiling fan here, etc.  That'd be a pain.  The whole process actually seems like a pain.

What was really sad is that when we walked out of there, we realized that we don't have a whole lot that is worth very much.  Besides the house, the cars, my wedding ring, two horses, and a couple guitars, the rest is just piddly stuff that wouldn't get very much at a garage sale. 

Not a whole lot to show for the last 21 years of adulthood.  Everything we have goes to our four beautiful kids so it's all worth it.  We'll get nice stuff after they're grown...unless it's going towards our grandkids at that point.

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Arm and Elbow Surgery

My husband might need surgery on his arm.  They think there might nerve damage or something else going on.  I guess after all the cortisone they shot him up with, that didn't work, the next step might be surgery.  He will find out when he sees the specialist if he will need surgery. 

I hope he's not going to need to use disability insurance or anything like that, but I would think if he is going to be off work for any amount of time, he will need to use disability.  Time will tell. 

Hopefully it'll be an outpatient thing that won't require major recuperating time or anything like that.

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Another Planet Found That Can Sustain Life?

Scientists have discovered another "earth" (earth, jr.), similar to our own 20 light years away.  According to Discovery, it might be habitable and in fact, could already have life on it!  Read about it here.  There are some differences (in terms of day/light and temperature changes), but the opinion seems to be that it can sustain life.

How cool.  I've always thought we'd have to be pretty close-minded to think we are the only ones out there. 

There is also talk that Christians will not like this discovery.  I don't know about that, not being Christian myself any longer, but I think it's pretty cool to know it exists, instead of just think it does.

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